Earned Love

For the longest. I thought God’s love, his favor on your life was an exchange. An exchange of goodness. If I do all things right. Or atleast with good intentions. Then he’d bless me.

This thinking is detrimental to the faith and to ourselves. There is only one place I could have gotten it from, and it’s the world.

Worldly thinking. Worldly views.

This thinking, I found was not only in my relationship with God. But relationships with people. I thought I had to EARN the love of God. I thought I COULD earn the love of people.

You chip away at yourself when you keep this thinking. You settle for things or close your self in. How can you receive what the Lord has for you then?

That’s not how it works. For either,

God just wants’ us to be. He wants our hearts and to invite him into our plans. Most of all, learn to be ok when your plans are not his plans.

When God has your heart, when you read his word it slowly changes you. The conviction runs deep. When you’re around the best people, they challenge you. Add to you. They hold you accountable.

No matter how much you give of yourself. It turns out it’ll never be enough if it’s just not meant. Maybe the intentions behind the actions was well meaning. But always seek God first, and do things because it’s correct thing to do. Not for an outcome of your liking. More importantly, pay attention to what’s in front of you.

But what I did learn between the two is, Just how our Father in heaven just wants us to be, to show up. That’s all we have to do in this life. It’s enough for God and it will be enough for the people who truly would like to maintain whatever the relationship is. Of course there’s growth, maturity. I don’t think anyone who walks with God doesn’t become better.

I am better.

My relationships are better.